One year.....

Wow, 1 year can certainly contain a LOT of ups and downs.  One year ago today, I began my weightloss journey.  I started out at 227 pounds and lost down to 188 pounds.  It was SUCH an accomplishment for me to make it that far.  I had a lot of emotional roller-coasters including the death of a friend and coworker, and then the loss of Dr. Cohen and Ms. Nancy.  Never, EVER Did I think that I would lose so much in one year, and you never truly know how much people mean to you until they're gone. 

I can't say I was perfect on following my journey, but I can say, everything that I was learning was sticking with me - and I actually felt bad if I broke my plan, even though I still did it!  I've lost utter and complete control of all of my "plans".  My eating's been out of control, I've found myself a very cynical, bitter person who been RAPIDLY gaining weight.....well, let me say I've plateaued at a gain.  I now weigh  209.3 pounds.  That's right only 17.7 pounds down.  I've gained back 21.3 pounds in 3 months. 

I've found myself to be in a pretty miserable place lately, and I KNOW I've got to get my butt back in gear and do SOMETHING about it!  Nobody has control over it but me.  I don't want to set unrealistic goals for myself, so, rather than setting a "New Years Resolution", I'm going to set it now.... I want to match this years loss of 17.7 pounds by this time next year.  If I can go through everything I did this year and still end in a loss, then I'm better than where I started, and at least I started!  I should be further than where I am, but I'm further than I was.  So, here's to being 191.6 by next December if not sooner. 

If you've experienced "Me" lately, I'm sorry!  I'm working on it, and taking the MANY necessary steps to getting ME back to ME!  In the meantime, please understand, I'm aware of where I am, and I'm trying to get better!  Love you all!